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1. antidepressant
2. 彻底改变了……的理解 revolutionize our understanding of
3. 引发人们从来没有考虑的问题 raise questions we hadn't consider before
4. 神经递质 neurotransmitter
5. 造成，引发 give rise to
6. 眩晕（酒醉、摇摇晃晃的） grogginess n.
昏昏沉沉、眩晕无力 adj. groggy
7. 对抑郁症的污名化 stigmatization surrounding depression
8. 细微的视角 nuanced view n. nuance
nuance n. 细微差别 ·认真注视着她的脸 watch her face intently to catch every nuance
9. 对药物毫无反应 don't respond to medication at all
10. (旧病)复发 relapse
11. 充其量、顶多、至多 at best
12. 听起来奇怪 sounds odd
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今天的真的过得想吐啊！最卑微最没前途最低收入最耻辱的工作……
Today is so sick! I felt incredibly ashamed of myself for engaging to such miserable and dead-end job.
图为心爱的你拍的。你俗气、下流、肤浅、物质主义，但你又多么可爱、开朗、活泼。看见你的笑脸仿佛一束温暖的阳光。但阳光太猛烈时又着实把我灼伤。你真的改变了我，我以前从来没渴望过开上一部好车，用上一台好手机，从来没有这么将放纵当狂野、将虚度当潇洒，将物质奉为面子……你真的改变了我，我很讨厌这样的自己，很讨厌自己的无能。
The picture is taken by you. You have asked for a leave today. Honestly, I miss you secretly and quietly. I cannot tell anybody. You are cheap and materialistic, but at the same time you are lovely, funny and lively. Your smile seems to melt everything——like the sun, warm but occasionally scorching. You did really change me, babe. Before I know you, I never crave a nice car or iphone or any material chase. Never did I treat self-indulgence as free spirit. Never did I treat idleness as comfort, materials as dignity... You've been really alter me, the worse me, the disappointing me. I hate my incompetence.
